if you comment in this journal, I will:

a) tell you why I friended you,
b) associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.,
c) tell you something I like about you,
d) tell you a memory I have of you,
e) ask something I've always wanted to know about you,
f) tell you my favorite user pic of yours,
g) in return, you must post this in your journal.(ehhh, not mandatory.)

Gosh, I used to be such a douche.


I read over my old diaries, journal entries, and blogspot stuff.

Made me want to delete and/or burn it all, then sanitize the spot it lay in.

Hm, nowadays, I will never use the term, "iKid"

or add excessive exclamation marks at the ends of each sentence...



Missed work today. Couldn't find mom. She's back though, now. Miles is right, hah. She is like a cat; you just cant kill her, and she'll always turn up again.

I've been selling off most of my things and giving whatever else away. If you want something of mine, just say it, and I'll probably hand it to you. Oh, except for money and my staple items. (which include clean changes of clothing and other such necessities.)

To live happily, you just need yourself. And a comfy place to sleep.


I don't think that 80% of what I own is necessary.
And I'm pretty sure I can make it on one meal a day, since I already do that.




F*ck oppression.
This bitch has freedom.

adrenaline. yessss.






Hah. My brother finally got a real girlfriend.
this cant turn out well.



I miss my friends. Like David; that crazy cracker.
I even almost miss Nick. Just because he hung around like a lovesick puppy.
Next year just wont be the same. It's going to be oh so different. I'm getting my hair chopped off (ALL of it) before school starts again.
Miles says he's dropping out...

Things to do before I die:
1. Move into a house with David & other friends.
2. Be satisfied with something that I paint.
3. own more than 5 pets at once.
4. Be vegetarian for more than 5 years.
5. Visit Europe
*6. Climb the Great Wall
7. Get over my social phobias.
8. Not need meds.
*9. Try to find a male of the species that's not a total dick.
10. Cut off all my hair.
11. Try acting
*12. experiment with...stuff.
*12a. not die a virgin
*13. Pierce myself
*14. Get a homemade tattoo
15. Go skinny dipping
*16. Watch the stars come out with someone I care about.
17. Weld one of those desks to the ceiling of the school.
18. Chase the Dragon
19. work on the Camaro
20. run away
21. Write novels
22. Write and publish poetry
23. Be a hobo for a bit
24. Go to raves
*25. prove logic wrong
26. Speak fluent Mandarin & Russian
27. Play Russian roulette. (which is a stupid idea, by the way.)
30. Finally declare a major
31. Lose 20 lbs, which I'm sure my body can handle that much more.
32. Help the Palestinians
33. Go to Haiti and help the orphanage
34. design clothes
35. shoplift
36. finally buy my own cigs instead of bumming off everyone elses.
37. Achieve what I didn't get to do last night.
38. See The Adicts in concert
39. Get lost in a MEGA MOSHPIT!! :]]
*39a. beat boy's asses at moshing
39b. break a bone moshing
*40. Skank
42. have a blues jam.
43. go more than 100 mph on the interstate
44. Have that picnic at the river that I never got to.
45. Get my full license
46. Get high on nutmeg.




and still counting. Just too drowsy to continue at the moment. When I get back Saturday, I'll update on my blogspot.

I start work. It's not much, but I'll be working all day until 1 in the morning. The money goes towards my car and the necessary gas and tax and such.

Last night was...yikes, in a good way.

yessss. sexy sexy.



"'Lana, a Camaro is a sports car. It's a muscle car. It's not meant for girls."


au contraire, daddy. :3


1995 coupe. hah, v6 engine. I took a look after popping the hood, and my first reaction was, "wow, I'm going to love working with this baby." Belts are all new, original engine parts, original paint job, all original upholstery. And it all looks perfect.
Runs like a purring tiger. Handles smoothly.

best part of all?
I only paid $1000.




Instead of the Jesus fish, I have a Darwin fish to stick on the back.


I'm taking care of Pete the baby squirrel. And soon when I earn enough more money, I'm buying more art supplies. I ran out of oil paint. Found a blueprint for the new shed that I'm moving into. when Viktor builds it, then I can start putting my studio in the top. Ultimate independence: car, job, and mini-apartment.



Things to do:
1. Move into a house with David & other friends.
2. Be satisfied with something that I paint.
3. own more than 5 pets at once.
4. Be vegetarian for more than 5 years.
5. Visit Europe
*6. Climb the Great Wall
7. Get over my social phobias.
8. Not need meds.
9. Try to find a male of the species that's not a total dick.

11. Try acting
*12. experiment with...stuff.
*12a. not die a virgin
*13. Pierce myself
*14. Get a homemade tattoo


I'm going to make this list wayyy longer. And put an asterisk next to the ones I've done.